LostInNJ83
I am so glad you are posting. If anyone could use Friends, comfort, some straight talk with good direction, you do.
List the Positives:
You are 30 years old.
You have a good job.
You know TTATT.
List the Negatives:
Married to a JW man, who is not your soul mate.
At the age to start a family, but you don't want to with this man
Anything to do with The Tryth(tm) makes you sick.
On your thread "Newbie Again (Kinds Sorta)", jgnat posted, "Thank him (your husband) for the effort he has put in the marriage and let him go."
We hear you LostInNj83.
We are here to give you support.
We hear that you are at a cross-roads in your life.
Keep posting, even if is the same subject, same subject, yes, same subject, until it finally comes to a head, in your mind, with what is good for you, what you can handle, what joys and problems you feel comfortable, enduring or doing a 180, and starting over with a clean slate.
You can have 60 more joyous, happy, fulfilling years to look forward to. Figure how to make that happiness, happen, for you, not your husband , not Jehovah, (God can figure things out for himself) not your Mother, she made her way, now you get to make yours.
It is your Life.
Wishing you only happiness.
Just Lois
Remember, we know you are in crisis mode. Keep posting!